Love hurts.
As much as it is about feeling complete, right, good... love... true love also hurts.
And I dont know if it is because humans tend to focus only on the good parts of things or whatever that we ignore and then almost completely forget that love hurts too.
I think this amnesia about this aspect of love has led to a lot of people being disillusioned with love and thereafter life. And I think it is really.... for a lack of a more accurate and intense word, sad. I think it is really really sad when people who become disillusioned with love and life just completely give it up altogether. It is almost like watching a movie about a guy who goes through thunderstorms, battles, hurricanes, deaths, whatever terrible catastrophe you can think of, and then, just when he is about to attain what he has gone through all that shit for, he comes to a clift that separates him and the treasure, he looks down and turns back.
Of course there are a ton of metaphors or whatever literally devices I was using in that analogy (hence an analogy) about the guy in a movie.
I think we are generally okay with sacrifice when it hurts a little and the benefits are almost instant. The problem with sacrifice only comes when it hurts a lot and the benefits are nowhere to be seen. A delayed action in the beneficial effects. And yes, if we are completely honest with ourselves, we do know that there are certain intangible benefits to sacrifice, almost akin to giving to the poor, I think it'd be naive and honestly quite full-of-ourselves to believe that humans are ever capable of altruism.
Mmm... so yes I think it is when sacrifice really begins to take its toil on people and when the benefits are nowhere to be seen, that most give up. Abandon the cause. Throw in the towel. Basically.... 'You are asking too much of me and I am really starting to question why I am even doing this in the first place'. It is when the intensity of the immediate and protracted pain outweighs the far-off but long lasting benefit.
I think what keeps you going then.... what happens between now and then is this little thing called........ F A I T H.
Between the crushing pain and the honestly... invisible and almost non-existent benefit, the thing that keeps you going is Faith.
To hang in there, to hang on, to not abandon what you have started on.
To believe, that, despite everything now..... the benefit of your sacrifice and pain will kick in sooner or later. Sooner of course would be much better and appreciated but the point is, to believe that it WILL eventually kick in, and then everything will be worth it.
I think for me... the hardest thing in the world... as of now... is to believe.
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