You know...All I want right now, is to be.....

excited about life again.

Sure life can't be a bed of roses or it could be if you considered the thorns roses have..... but....

despite everything, I want to be excited about life again.

It's just like how one of my friend put it so aptly, I want to feel as if the world is 'full of hope' again.

I love that feeling.

I used to have it.

Now..... it's just like a plateau.

Like this.

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Why? I am not sure.

Tsk. Oh wells.

C'est la vie!

By the way, I thought this was felt only by people in their 30s.

Like during their mid-life crisis or something.

WOW.

It CAME EARLY.

(haha!)

Anyways.......

I can't stand not knowing.

Or the inability to understand why.

I just can't stand not knowing the answer to which questions I see myself constantly living out.

Can't. stand. it.

CANNOT TAKE IT.

But apparently, I read somewhere that......

When we want to know the answers so badly, we shortchange ourselves of an opportunity to trust God.

Yup... (nods head)

That was powerful.

Sigh.

Just gotta, to quote my favourite disney show,

"keep the faith.......cause it's all about the climb".

Life is a climb. But the view's great.